The pull of passionate angst is so weird and powerful.  That dreamy, yet real feeling that swells in your body, almost like a psychedelic oil that drapes over your body.  This is no joke, the presence of angst is powerful.  It’s like that aura stuff that some people talk about.  It radiates from your soul.  The colors it takes on are special to your unique vision, or story.  The feeling is so friendly, it’s better than anything anyone can bring out in you….other than a sexual partner, or a public acknowledgement.
The sex thing is another story, and the acknowledgement thing can get rather uncomfortable…so, personal passion wins out.  It’s private, it’s yours, and it plays itself out exactly how you want it.  In truth, it radiates naturally from the deepest part of your soul.  I suspect it’s your personal legend, as Paulo Cohelo wrote in his book, The Alchemist.  In a recent interview with Oprah Winfrey, he said that all ‘Personal Legend’ is, is one’s purpose.

That passionate angst you’re feeling is your purpose?!  What the F are you doing walking around with your purpose swelling all around you??  You can get into big trouble with that kind of distraction.  It happens to me all of the time.  Usually, I’m talking to my girlfriend or recording her a message which I later email to her.  Invariably, I will be driving down the road, completely absorbed in my angst, and miss my turn to that all important appointment.  And most of the time that deadline is…work.  So friggin’ frustrating it is to miss your turn, when time is of the utmost importance.  Damn personal legends!

It’s been far too long since I’ve written an article for my Blog.  I’ve been so all consumed with working for the last 10 months.  I knew I would be hard pressed to get back on my computer to express myself.  I wish I hadn’t strayed away, but I did.  Living life just seems to get in the way of our purpose.  And that’s where angst comes in.  Many of us want to follow our dreams, we want to live our passions, we crave that all consuming passion that swells it’s lovely head, but we get caught up by the hard reality of surviving life.  That’s that passionate angst stuff I’m talking about.  We feel the good stuff come up, but there’s this deep seated angst that stops it from manifesting the greatness within us.  So, what do we do about it?

Most of us just have to wait.  Some of us have to find the right moment, then attack the passionate angst with fervor…breaking into parts, and working through it step by step to it’s delightful end.  Others of us blow everything else off and absorb the greatness of the moment right then and there.  And, there are those out there that never take the grip of angst, dirty up our hands, and wrestle our way through the un-fun struggles to reach the rewarding end.

Well, now, after months of hard labor, I am back.  I’ve put my washed out sweaty gloves aside, and I’m ready to embrace my passionate legend with heartfelt fervor.   I am ‘livin’-the-dream’…as we say on the film set…and the dream includes…creating something for you.

Yep, my personal legend, my passion, my angst, my dream, is to create, share, and inspire the people in my world to feel their greatness.  I want it, you want it, and the world needs it.  We all need to wash away the crappy angst in our lives, and live out our most warm, wet, and wonderful feelings of joy.  We need it bad, and quite frankly, it needs us.  That passion that sneaks up in your life, when you least expect, is the very thing that the universe needs too.  We are propelled by it.  We, you, and them, get invigorated when we are in the presence of its gripping power.

It’s everywhere, we all thrive on it…whether it comes from a person, an event, music, movies, vacations, drugs, or wherever, we live for it.  Sometimes we’ll do just about anything for it.  We go to great lengths to open the angst ridden doors, and walk through to the good stuff…the passion…the personal legend that lies within.  We do weird stuff, and sometimes it hurts, and at times we hurt others.  Okay, now going forward do me just one favor.  Remember, your greatness is yours and yours alone.  It’s within each and everyone of us.  It is ours.  It is there all of the time.  You just need to know that it does not belong in the hands of the other person, a group, or an entity.  A public figure or thing does not make you great…you make you great.  You’ve got the good shit inside of you.  You can act on it at anytime.  Those outside things certainly do spark that passion within us, but ultimately you’ve got everything you need to fire up you passion on any given day.  So do it.  It is yours for the taking at any moment.  So take it.  When the time is right, go for it.  Don’t wait for the right time, or the right place, or for the right amount of money.  Grab your passion right now.  And don’t rely on any other person, place, or thing, to dictate when you swell in the glory of that most magnificent of feelings…your own personal passion.  It’s your purpose.